I keep typing things to write about, and I wonder why I'm having so much trouble trying to find something to say. I guess, I had a bit of post-Sydney blues. It happens, especially since I truly didn't get to spend any time with my Dad... After not seeing him for 7 months, I could have spared him a week from my socialising, but as usual -- I seem to act selfishly in the moment and regret it with everything, afterwards. I saw my Dad for one night and he seemed a bit let down that I wasn't staying longer... I wished I had.... Oh well, it's over with now.
Every now and then I get a bout of depression. Praise God, it's hardly the same kind of despair and rock-bottom sadness as the kind that used to encumber me back a few years ago -- but, sometimes it's distant relatives creep up on me and bring me down a couple pegs. I didn't want to go back to college last week. I wanted to quit. I wanted to go to bed and sleep off the sadness. I couldn't really motivate myself to do anything that needed to be done.
I had an assignment due today which, when I received it, I was a little excited about -- but for some reason, I let time pass and didn't bother with it. I misread the calandar, I thought tomorrow it was due, so I figured I'd use monday to get it done, because the places I had to obtain info were closed for the weekend. Half of me was screaming angry that I left it to the last minute-- and the other part of me, just didn't care... I'm not even going to bother with my defense... I had plenty of time to do it, I just didn't. I couldn't even use the arguement that I have a load of other work to do, because even as true as that may be -- I actually haven't started on much of that either. I worked most of the holiday in Sydney making a website for a very successful Australian business... I used a lot of the time I had planned to do my assignments on that -- but it's still not an excuse.
And I want to go to uni after this course? Laughable, considering I'm peaking it about THIS workload... My course is pretty lenient on not handing things in, my teachers are understanding and take other class loads in to consideration. Uni is much more demanding and not so accomodating of cheesy excuses -- so I had to make the decision... am I going to do this half-arsed? Or am I going to do this properly? .... So, I made a list of everything that is due, everything that is overdue, I will go to my teachers on wednesday, and figure out something and let them know what's going on. I will make sure I have done absolutely everything that needs to be handed in, and really just start pulling my head in and doing it.
I don't want to be a half-arsed carer, I want to be good at my job...
I got home tonight and started organising all of my work, I fixed up my work space and got myself organised. I have a day off tomorrow, and I'm going to do everything and get it all finished and prioritise a whole lot better.
Here's to an end of procrastination.
God Bless.
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Seems like thru a challenge - you made the right decision. You worked it out...not by yourself but with the wisdom Jesus Christ has given us.
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